Monday, February 28, 2011
COLLABORATIVE CREATIVITY PERSONIFIED
Friday, November 26, 2010
I FINALLY FIND A REASON FOR THE ACCORDION
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
IN PRAISE OF "AVATAR"

While the status quotients take pot shots from specialized perches, an entire generation of still absorbent intellects “get” the big picture being painted in glorious praise of symbiosis with that without which we cannot live. In making his latest, greatest attempt to effect the paradigm of man’s meaning in the scheme of things, John Cameron has synthesized so many disparate fields into this movie, Avatar, that it represents the epitome of the term gestalt: the total that is greater than the sum of its parts.
Like the beautifully depicted symbiosis of the Na'vi with the other beings native to Pandora by the twining of opened nerve endings in a gesture of surrendering individuality for the benefit of both, the fields of technical expertise brought together for this production and the very real problems caused by civilization’s attitude toward the body from which it arises encompassed by the story is an entwining resulting in the benefit of all.
The grumblers remind me of the railroad fireman’s lament, diesel putting their stoking shovel out of work, as each of their fields are being drug kicking and screaming into the next generation. Another reenactment of Robert Persig’s Metaphysics of Quality explaining the mechanistic ratcheting effect civilization’s artificial establishmentarianism puts on the otherwise natural evolution of man’s understanding of the living universe in which we are a dependent part.
My love for movies is of a piece with my love of all expressions intended to be of benefit. I am interested in expressions of what I perceive to be intended harm as an opportunity to examine my desire to protect the oxen I’ve made so sacred I fear their goring in the alternative light of as yet considered viewpoints. Movies are a way to put a subject on the table.
When asked his take on Avatar, an author whose book I praised for his insight into the ecstasy of symbiosis with nature replied, exemplifying the blindness of pride in his initialed authority, “I have no answer, because I do not watch movies of this ilk.”
I called him on it with, “Wow, Kultur, you really are a snob aren't you? Or do all of your ilk go around calling out others' ilk just to fit in? How do you maintain ecstasy so far removed from its source — the oneness of us all? “
Confirming his condescending hubris he answered, “BTW. Ilk means type, sort, kind. Sorry about your hypersensitivity.”
An acquaintance asked with whom I’d gone to the movie I mentioned just having seen. When I said I’d gone alone, he replied. “That’s the saddest thing I ever heard.” Hyperbole aside, was this guy implying friendlessness being the only reason for solitude? Or perhaps movies were, for him, just part and parcel of the more tedious dining, dancing, drinking ploy for which rohypnol is the latest keystroke shortcut means to an end? Who knows? In this day when dating means fucking and fucking means something being destroyed, who knows?
Well, I certainly got off on a tangent there, but it may emphasize how deeply I feel the movie, Avatar, can and may effect our possibilities of becoming symbiotic with the body upon which we now act like cancer cells. As all cures for rigid resistance to change in the aged, the natural regeneration of new know-nothing cells keep the possibilities for such a return perpetually open.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
CLARITY THROUGH CINNAMON MIST
This post is the second thing to pop into my mind upon reading Jeff's theme for the next session for 10th Daughter of Memory, Clarity Through a Cinnamon Mist. Since he posted twice last time I said why not? This graphic is the background artwork I did for a band called the Esquires ten years ago, with the clarity that has come through the cinnamon mist of this meditator's mountain retreat over that period.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
OUR GLASS
single
grain
breaks
loose of
the crowd
at a kissing
of the spheres
emptying past proof
of multicounted moments
fully filling futures always to come
in the present so often wasted waiting
killing time 'til the promised revolution
brings the "bottom to the top" solution
for the one's who think they're done
nothing left new under the sun
life's not in the glass
time's not in a jar
we're all in a body
vastly bigger than we are
Saturday, January 09, 2010
OH
ohohohoh,
ititiit
is
so vast —
we see it all
words blow away
like leaves in the fall
mouldering in our memory
experience unexpressed feeds
seeds of metabolic metaphors
magnets align forgotten files
connecting all the labels
drawing all the tables
adding up to one
inexpressible
vastness
only
seennees
tootototo
beebebebebeb
beebebebebebeb
lived,devildevil
oh hohoho
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
SIR DAVID SINGS OF LIFE
Sunday, December 13, 2009
IMAGING
Ally
Arouse
Arena
Adventure
Absolution
Ablution
Being
Burgeon
Beat
Belly
Borne
Born
Curl
Comatose
Comfy
Cramp
Conscious
Curious
Density
Different
Dabble
Defend
Depend
Delicious
Easy
Edgy
Eager
Earthling
Evolving
Eternal
Essence
Forms
Frames
Future
Flames
Find
Favorite
Games
Goings
Gettings
It is not our task to have the right answer before we die,
It is our gratitude to find more profound questions
throughout our naturally curious lives
however long that gift
may survive our
impatience for
conclusions.
Grockings
Groupings
Graphings
Happy
Hum
Handle
Hit
Hurt
Hesitate
Ideas
Ideals
Imagination
Iconoclast
Isolation
Individual
Journey
Justice
Jury
Jail
Journal
Joy
Karma:
Knots
Keep
Keen
Knowledge
Kosher
Lecture
Learn
Love
Lure
Leap
Loose
Mother
Meaning
Micro
Macro
Memory
Momentum
Naïve
Note
New.
Nurse,
“Not
Now.”
Open
Opiate
Obviate
Oblivious
Organism
Operation
Poem
Ponder
Pleasure
Pressure
Palpate
Penetrate
Quaint
Qualms
Quantify
Quisling’s
Quality
Quest
Ribosomes
Remember,
Romantic
Roaming
Riddles
“Reality”
Scenario
Setting
Story
Saga
Spontaneity
Silenced
Civilization is a stragedy of erroneous eras
we’re all too willing to ignore
because it’s all we know
how to be
told to
do
.
Tradition
Test
Trait
Talley
Truth
Tell
Unique
Umbrage
Until
Understand
Universal
Unity
Variety
Verify
Very
Vaporous
Vortex
Veil
Wander
Wonder
Wisdom
Wax
Wizard
Wane
Xanthippe’s
Xeric
Xenobiotic
Xenia,
Xenopus
X'ed
Youth
Yawn
Yin
Yang
Yearn
Yoga
Zazen
Zero
Zocalo
Zeal
Zoetrope
Zoo
Friday, November 27, 2009
IT ALL A.D.D.S UP
She awoke at day break
Fast of frying eggs and bacon strips
Off her PJs and jumps into the shower’s steaming stream
Lined by subjecting a block of sand to a wind tunnel
Vision kept George from taking the trouble
From her face when she thought he was lying
South of the equator, just East of the Glapagos
Ninja Turtles kept the kids out of her hair
Brush 97, brush 98, brush 99, brush 100
Times, if she’d told him once
Upon a time stories to tuck
And Little John were merry men
Can’t jump or tell the truth
Her kids found in stories she used to make up
On her face and sheath on her torso
By Rodin being born from the rock
Music coming from the kitchen
Reeking of delicious and so nutritious
From hens not stuffed in a box
Lunch for other women’s appitites
For adventurous exploits on the ocean
Of motel bedsheets
Of water washing away
Dreams of doubt in a blink of an
iPhone call from Timmy still in bed
Of roses when seen from the outside
The sun cleared the tree line
Of excuses from here to
“Hello, lazy bones. Come down to breakfast…
At …”
People said she looked like Audry Hepburn
The toast if she hadn’t ejected it.
“Good morning, dear.”
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
CREATIVITY: THE COSMIC WHODUNIT

The one thing common to all forms of creativity is the assumption of intention aforethought. From world creating gods to tide creating gravity, a purpose to manifestation of artifacts and effects is assigned as a tag with which to most expediently catalogue our ongoing experience of the present framed in concern for the cumulative sense of comfort about coming events. Believing that everything has a purpose is rarely tested beyond its ability to find a niche within one’s faith in a world and life as something being done by some super geek accomplishing a goal with us as the means.
The most rational among western civilization’s more curious minds are just lately beginning to question the demythologized, essential requirement of the concept of creativity: cause and effect — and how the admission of any form of simultaneity belies the necessity for assigning a direction to causality for change to occur. We impose restrictions on our possibilities of realization by our inability to describe our experience to ourselves in terms that can do no other than imprison our minds. Part of thinking outside the box is our willingness to understand our fluid, preverbal thoughts, unhampered by concern for whether or how they may be manifested, arising from the nowhere sea of the invisibly, infinitesimally small, instantaneous, spontaneous eternity of the present as they do.
The requirements of cause and effect take effect when preverbal inspiration sparks a desire to manifest itself in relation to a consensus reality, even if it is only an ironic smile crossing one’s face at realizing the twist such an admission may put on one’s own ongoing reality tunnel. Like those atomic physicists’ probes into the enigma of where, when and how who did what to whom in the otherworldly world of quarks, I have come to suspect there is an entire, underlying behavior pattern to my life which never consults consensus reality or my own reality tunnel as my body bops along relaying to me the world as it is and whether it cares to respond to any assumption of purpose that may evoke in me. This could mean that all I manifest, from language to action, is essentially a happening; an event my body was only too happy to be part of being. This way, the only doing involved would be to modify the synchronistic spontaneity of being in the moment to plan to serve some expectation, some purpose for mañana; just not now. It is very interesting that the finer science is able to slice time the less obvious the assumption of causality becomes.
It’s been a long, strange trip to get wherever it is I am, but now that I’m here I’m beginning to think nothing I could have done would have prevented arriving, no alternate reality tunnel could avoid including this empirical realization of the difference between being and doing. One of my dad’s aphorisms about the creativity of painting was to, “leave in the happy mistakes.” I’m beginning to wonder if my entire life isn’t just one big happy off-color daub of paint left on a world canvass painted by a soulless civilization with unlimited assumptions about correctness of its purpose.
All I know is that I can stand up from my seat in the shed with no purpose in mind, gaze around the garden, chicken coop, pond, compost pile, state of fall leaves in the yard and feel either an attraction to action or the consideration of procrastination in response to my avowed primary directive to maintain some sense of symbiotic benefit with my environment. I either go with it or sit back down. Most of the pleasure my life is to me is the realization that, while this environment of “my place” may not appear to be what it is if I hadn’t moved here, I have never actually “done” any of the changes; I just agreed with a good idea amidst whatever now simultaneously happened to be.
Without having been bombarded everyday of my life with culture’s idea that the world was created and is still controlled for the unquestionably holy purpose of having we humans to love and/or punish by the great transformer in the sky, I doubt it would ever have occurred to me. Without having to deal with a culture whose assumption of ownership and superior righteousness of purpose granted by their creator, my dedication to understanding it in a more profound way than can be expressed, and through such inadequate expressions as I may manifest perhaps resonate within still muddled minds, might not have needed to become an avowed a purpose for my life.
Maybe.
Monday, November 09, 2009
PATENTLY COPYWRONG

I just left a site with a giant copyright symbol and statement at the top of his side bar to return here with a clear explanation of why I see assuming the authority to control the interpretation of a voluntarily overt act second only to the usury such assumptions enable that riddles western civilization with the constant sense of oppression it exudes. Competition is beneficial only when it encourages everyone to expand their perspective and skills beyond the current edge with no energy devoted to retarding fellow vier’s possibilies; otherwise, such events are competitions in the most spiteful vanity.
When I first decided to sacrifice my graphic skills on the fires of the open market, I matted up the pages from several pads of watercolors, pastels and pen and sat on a blanket on the sidewalk along the “drag” with other art and craft vendors. Among the many things I learned by watching the faces of the people leafing through my work was how fraught with attachment to their reactions I was — to the point that the whenever I sat with pen, brush, chalk in hand after that venture, my mind leaped beyond any inspiration to faces in reaction to whatever it might have been. For me it was severe artist block. It was a full ten years before I was able to live by mypenchant and passion for art.
The one thing that has changed in the thirty odd years since that experience is my attitude toward the future of anything I might create once I offer it for public access. While it remains an inspiration or its incarnation in a drawing pad, note pad, voice recorder or computer program the work is mine; how could it be otherwise? But when I receive my commission from a client, sell my art to a customer or publish rants and ponders here, they are out of my hands and are free to be used for anything. To litigiously trace works into their future to ensure my desired interpretation is not only frustratingly futile, for an artist or author it is self-defeating.
My friend, Amber, began her own stained glass business making hanging creations she called Suncatchers. They are so beautiful that within a couple of years she began seeing “suncatchers” at trade shows underselling items so brazenly copied as to have the same names for the pieces. After much contemplation on the situation she realized the negativity and expense associated with legal action was much greater than any loss she might recover.
More importantly, she realized the value of any of her creations was in the quality she devoted to her own inspirations, a field in which she relished creating new pieces yet to be imitated by flatterers who not only demonstrated her ideas, but exposed the superior quality of her work as surely as an ad campaign.
In the case of the blogger who warns away plagiarists with a stay puff sized ©, I must assume he either wants to keep his ownership, income or integrity in tact although others’ misuse of his work can have no effect on the value of his intended meaning, while gratuitously drawing attention to the expressions he wanted out there in the first place.
Methinks © protests too much.
Monday, November 02, 2009
MOON … OON … ON … N

The full Moon dawns on the break of night
Solar reflection, Brian’s selection
The theme for All Hallows Eve.
Her full moon dawns on my line of sight
Solar reflection’s reflection’s detection
From my pond she doth retrieve.
I see it in the water of my eyes
In the mirror on the wall
Out the window to it all
In her rippled rings of water
In the pond
On her moon
On the Moon
In rings of water drops
In the sky
Sol still
Reverberating
His gong
Long gone
Not yet.
This is my submission to this installment of 10th Daughter of Memory, though the post just before this is the result of getting so reflective about the Moon’s dawning I followed curiosity way off the theme. Boy oh boy, without reflection detection we’d need television.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
DAY AT THE BEACH

They finally had a whole day together. She’d been planning it for what seemed like a month. Now it was happening. She’d emptied and defrosted the refrigerator last night so that it could air out all day today while they were gone. She’d made an entry on her iPhone list of “things to do on the way back” in the order each place would be passed driving home along the coast road tonight. The list was stored under “lists” for Saturday, August 9th on her iCal. Life had never rewarded her for her ability to organize it so well as it had since she got her iPhone.
The loud rip of a zipper tore through his dreamless kitten fur slumber brought back the sound of her voice describing what today would be like as he drifted off into the soma afterglow of their love making last night. After slipping his legs into shorts, his feet into sandals and his torso into a tee and sipping some ganjava into himself on his way to the car he picked up his surfboard, sketch pad and easel. He was toking a pinner as she emerged from the house with enough travel gear and beach equipment for a week on the Cote D’Azure.
An hour later, after frustrating logistical debates with the logic of a hybrid car too small to carry anything more than two people no matter how small its carbon foot print may be, they were on the road headed south with the rising sun hitting him twice behind his shades as it separated from its mirror. His surfboard, rather than being the first item to be left behind, saved the day, so to speak. They’d strapped her several travel bags to it making containment splints of her beach umbrella and his easel, all of which they’d tied to the top via rope through the open windows. They’d have to climb through the window if they went so far they’d have to stop before they got to whatever place it was she’d promised would spontaneously catch her fancy on the way.
As wonderfully romantic as her plan to find the perfect, secluded beach from a car traveling on a heavily trafficked road seemed, they settled for the place she couldn’t hold it any longer. When she returned from the bushes all the gear was gone and a furrow led away from the car and over the dunes toward the beach. She grabbed her giant woven beach hat and matching bag from the car and topped the dune to see their stretcher still loaded with the body of baggage but Tim was nowhere in sight. Making her way to the gear in her matching beach shoes in sand that would be tough going even in bare feet, she heard his whoop from a hundred yards out to sea as he surfaced at the same time as a dolphin beside him.
She loved him so much more than she ever could have loved, wanted to love Job. As great as Job was at whatever he was doing or how much alike they were, both qualities made their relationship impossible. They never saw each other; being so dedicated to their careers that her birth control pills were almost superfluous. They both had offices at home, for pity’s sake. It seemed like Tim was always there for her when she needed him.
As he looked up from a gingerly examination of the carcass of a Portugueses Man of War he’d found washed up to the line of sea weed left by the last high tide on his stroll back to Priscilla and the bundle he spied her busy unwrapping and reconstructing into their awning, barbecue pit, entertainment center with boom box and TV.
It was so much easier to love her than it had been loving Ursula. They’d loved each other so completely they became one person, never apart. It was wonderful at first. They couldn’t believe how lucky they were among all the dysfunctional couples they knew. They knew each other so well one could remind the other of intentions postponed or call bullshit on a recollection of a shared experience. No matter how spontaneous they both were about their approach to life, they found their tendency to treat each other’s work on themselves as if it were their own psyche which aroused twinges of resentment that, over time, built a wall behind which they hid thoughts from each other. Although the thoughts were suppressed, they recognized the hiding. They lost their sense of humor and it devastated them both. It seemed like Priscilla was open and eager to share her enthusiasm about her multi varied life to his complete delight during their rare times open in her schedule.
While Tim made several gesture drawings of the beach scenes, Priscilla busied herself preparing tasty tid-bits, which she popped into his mouth upon their reaching perfection. When she got to tossing caviar to the sea gulls halfway though the second bottle of wine, he got out his pastels to catch the feel of the rare scene of her spontaneity in wasting a hundred dollars worth of sturgeon eggs just for fun and the frantic, raucous excitement of the screeching gulls. His gift of groking auras enabled him to lightly brush the heavy, rough paper with lavender chalk around her outstretched body conveying the inebriated elevation of her perceptions and green in the air around the gulls that spoke of the loud cacophony of their cries. It was alive and was to hang in their living room for many years.
In the shade of the awning they made love, the strength of his contentment was a steady stage upon which she danced to her heart’s content. After sharing a few puffs on his post coital doobie she twittered all her friends and he slept the sleep of the gods for an hour or so. He woke with sand stinging his skin and before averting his eyes to open them he knew they’d see surf.
As puny as the surf is on the eastern shore there are occasions of a sea breeze steady enough strong enough to stack up water high enough that he could climb on for a ride long enough to satisfy his longing for Hawaii. He was ecstatic to find that the southerly winds were running the waves about forty-five degrees to the shore line so if he kept sliding out to sea on one he could ride it almost a quarter of a mile while Priscilla ran through the glass thin edge of the same wave as it washed ashore video taping his delirious antics upon the rock steady board.
After three such magic carpet rides she begged him to stop because the light was getting too dim. Her list remained stored on her iPhone while Tim drove past all her scheduled stops on their way home to the tune of her exhausted snoring. He was used to it, she was always exhausted by the time she gave it up to Morpheus. He loved it. It reminded him of what a live wire he’d gotten hold of. She dreamt of an endless summer of him on the board and her running the whole way beside him. She really enjoyed her work, but she cherished these times with Tim in between yesterday and tomorrow. He was always there, seemingly waiting for her, though he’d never call her late.
Friday, May 22, 2009
FAIR WITNESS
I have a special friend. If Robert Heinlein were to ask her what color was my porch, she would answer, “It’s covered in creepy vines; on this side.” Her return to residence at the Dawgranch has rekindled a conversation that began around the pond over morning ganjava five years ago and continues each of these days around the everchanging wonder of baby chicks growing to maturity. This blog was begun as an outlet for the momentum the vigor of our discussions had generated when she upped anchor for NYC three years ago.
Unlike blogging to an unresponsive, unknown readership with rare excellent exception, our conversations deal with immediate feedback from the smoke detectors we serve each other as by calling out fuzzy language and logic in genuine efforts to share and understand new and alien ideas. The energy of our exchanges serves to drive my meditation during the times alone. It seems the ultimate value of language is that through the natural diversification of labels and meanings due to early nurturing among local customs, we each bring a naturally different picture of the world to a shared process of revealing the pre-existing theme from which all the varieties arise.
She makes me dig harder to help her get her head around my use of terms like void, infinity, gestalt and the mobius loop. I rail at her use of awesome to describe the commonest of phenomenon, only to be brought up short by my jaded, unwilling-to-be-awed attitude that permits me such condescending snobbery and blinds me to how awesome the mere quantity of the commonest critters truly is. Nature is awesome.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
MUSIC FROM THE GARDEN
Somewhere between the wind in the trees and the drumming of the earth …
this tune dangles just out of reach
but I string along anyway.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
INFINITY STICK
What of these untouched memories would bring benefit in retelling? It is a fine distinction of principle I trod once before; the difficulty in learning to sell my art because, once I had, it tainted my brush with the desire to have future customers react the way they had to my work done for no one but my own love of the process. Perhaps that is the beauty of fiction. With my art I compromised by doing only business related illustration projects for money and the rest for the love of it and gifts for friends. Writing fiction deflects the dilution retelling is on the treasure trove in one’s wine cellar of nostalgia by only passing the cork and letting the readers remember their own vino vivo from the aroma.
So, here is a fiction I offer. It is a book with fewer words than pictures, and fewer pages than that. When I was in the service there was a tradition that if a man desired to get out after his enlistment term expired he was to cut off a length of broomstick long enough to paint 30 stripes of alternating red and white prior to his last month and then whittle off one stripe of his “short timer’s stick” every day until he left because no one wanted anyone leaving to touch anything, so suspicious of civilian minded folks those lifers were. So I herewith present to you my Infinity Stick, because I’m gonna be here forever.
and that's the truth

FULL RESOLUTION READING
Sunday, December 21, 2008
CINEMA—COLLABORATIVE LITERATURE PART II
This second installment of my favorite cinematic literature should in no way be taken as second choice as each one I list is the best of its kind. Surely there is no other movie like the one I lead off with this time.










Mark: “if you have no laws on K-PAX, how do you determine right and wrong?”
Prot: “Every being in the universe knows the difference between right and wrong, Mark.” I have never seen such a simple validation of genetic memory and the stifling of it with preemptive directives from clueless authority.
Well, I gotta quit now before I synopsize every movie I’ve ever liked. Terry Gilliam deserves a post all by himself. I could never be a movie critic because I wouldn’t want to waste any notoriety on something I felt was better off not existing, not even the chance to be as perfectly curt as the reviewer who wrote, “The Deep wasn’t.”
I still want more feedback on these and/or any others these bring to mind.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
BRUNO'S ART & SCULPTURE GARDEN



The coolest part of my grand introduction to this fellow was upon visiting his web site, Bruno's Art and Sculpture Garden, to learn that he is a painter who, judging from his self portrait and the too few others shown, that he paints very much like Van Gogh.
